one day the world will end
and where will you be
probably six feet lower than now
but a world already ended for me
{im so comatose
and i can feel everything
a drug with no overdose
a neverending dream amazing}
The year was 1969 and what was set
a flame to scorch the dark sky
an effect to last a lifetime
till it was blow away by the bomb
like the 70's lighting the way
demolished a jungle that stood in my way
contact in the jungle
but not just one big scuffle.
7 pints lost and a leg gone
Then came the bomb that saved my life.
pull the shrapnel from the the arms
repair the wounds from the war
5 months ago the bomb was dropped
and hiroshima was gone
now im winnin like the 50's
and im livin in the 30's
and i look ahead and see the light
im so close, i could die.
{im so comatose
and i can feel everything
a drug with no overdose
a neverending dream amazing}
150 nights and nowhere near done
a marathon i can run
that push i love to take
because the finish line awaits.
an impactful crash
a beautiful explosion
a blow to the head
left close to dead.
if this is a coma let me never wake up.
if this is real let me never sleep.
60 hours from my escape from rehab
its good to be out, back to my habits.
you can call 'em bad.
but thats the way i love it.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Thats a big shot at humanity right there/
~im gunna need a picture
because i cant remember the good things
when the bad hits its all i see
because my good things not around
please give me some pictures
injection into my veins
because i cannot feel a thing
i do not feel this sting.~
I had a dream
you were dead in my hands
and i know
what a horrible situation that would have been
now im half naked on the floor
and you watch from above
the last thread of hope has been pulled
from the black sweater i wore
wont you join me outside
in the nice weather with a fag 'n' some jokes
and as the smoke fills your lungs you tell me
just how bad it was.
you tell me it got better and always will too
but ill be out in an hour
because it seems we both lose.
[I dream of you all on a stand
cry me the Cuyahoga river, and sit drenched in your tears
i dream to light a match
set fire to those tears, and send you out of here.]
In the morning ill see it all
not quite alright but i see all that is wrong
the hateful eye that follows
The eyes i want to tear out
in the worst way possible
right out of sight.
i cant run fast enough
and time doesnt fly
so ill just have to lounge till i get to say goodbye
or at least till the next night
[I dream of you all on a stand
cry me the Cuyahoga river, and sit drenched in your tears
i dream to light a match
set fire to those tears, and send you out of here.]
and it begins all over again!
the same old dream about mine and your death!
and as usual i try to save us
and i try to run
but i learn the worst way not to race a gun.
but i fail and we fall
we share the same blood, scattered on the wall
sliding down to write the story of our lives
and the camera on the ceiling will show it
even after its wiped away
and its sketched on their eyes, the ones in the room
this is how we live forever
the memories of them, the stories in the papers,
the film in the camera, the picture ive been waiting for
and that video... on youtube.
because i cant remember the good things
when the bad hits its all i see
because my good things not around
please give me some pictures
injection into my veins
because i cannot feel a thing
i do not feel this sting.~
I had a dream
you were dead in my hands
and i know
what a horrible situation that would have been
now im half naked on the floor
and you watch from above
the last thread of hope has been pulled
from the black sweater i wore
wont you join me outside
in the nice weather with a fag 'n' some jokes
and as the smoke fills your lungs you tell me
just how bad it was.
you tell me it got better and always will too
but ill be out in an hour
because it seems we both lose.
[I dream of you all on a stand
cry me the Cuyahoga river, and sit drenched in your tears
i dream to light a match
set fire to those tears, and send you out of here.]
In the morning ill see it all
not quite alright but i see all that is wrong
the hateful eye that follows
The eyes i want to tear out
in the worst way possible
right out of sight.
i cant run fast enough
and time doesnt fly
so ill just have to lounge till i get to say goodbye
or at least till the next night
[I dream of you all on a stand
cry me the Cuyahoga river, and sit drenched in your tears
i dream to light a match
set fire to those tears, and send you out of here.]
and it begins all over again!
the same old dream about mine and your death!
and as usual i try to save us
and i try to run
but i learn the worst way not to race a gun.
but i fail and we fall
we share the same blood, scattered on the wall
sliding down to write the story of our lives
and the camera on the ceiling will show it
even after its wiped away
and its sketched on their eyes, the ones in the room
this is how we live forever
the memories of them, the stories in the papers,
the film in the camera, the picture ive been waiting for
and that video... on youtube.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
This Ones About Hangnails
At that point when you know speed is visual
but nothing enters your veins its all in your eyes
on thin air all your worries are minimal
faster faster your eyes cant keep up with it all
keep going, keep going your almost to the top
when we get there its enough to make my heart stop;
Big crash, at last, you are now one with the speed.
your life, so fast, it was over before you know it
and when you come to you wont remember any of it
the glass, the wall, the terrifying fall.
theres nothing left you are now one with that speed.
Noone can see you, you are one with the road.
but nothing enters your veins its all in your eyes
on thin air all your worries are minimal
faster faster your eyes cant keep up with it all
keep going, keep going your almost to the top
when we get there its enough to make my heart stop;
Big crash, at last, you are now one with the speed.
your life, so fast, it was over before you know it
and when you come to you wont remember any of it
the glass, the wall, the terrifying fall.
theres nothing left you are now one with that speed.
Noone can see you, you are one with the road.
Friday, July 3, 2009
A bitch slap of philosophy
since birth, humans search for that 'something'
that is what the journey is all about.
then we are all broken down into fractions from there.
These fractions dont necessarily relate to this search at all...
And to save time with math...i will not provide my estimates to these percentages.
First divide, the ones that want a successful life, the ones that dont, and the ones that get lost in between.
for humans, and their need to be a part of a group... can easily get lost.
kids, oh how their minds can be shaped much like the playdoh they occupy their time with.
Here is where it starts, with the parents.
I know the trend of those that feel like destroying their lives will never go away for this fact,
stupid parents pass it on to their kids, who dont know any better.
Example,racist man and racist woman have a baby boy.
This boy with the aspirations to grow up and lead a normal life will be hit with every racial slur in the book and then some before he can talk most likely.
because a majority of the world has accepted that skin color does not make you any different in reality..
they will see other races allllll over, and making comments to each other that their son will inevitably hear and soak up.
stupidity is in fact infectious.
Now i realize the small chance that this kid can see the error his parents present
through childhood friends maybe.
He could be headed down any of the divided roads at this point but now he is stuck in the lost category.
The moment that could decide comes when he possibly sees a child of another race in his school, or class, or maybe at the store or on the street.
The words he uses to describe that person in his mind or aloud are very influential to his path
Choosing the racial path in todays age could more likely than not lead to the bad path.
Now his friends, once he gets older.
the drugs, the alcohols, the trouble, definitive factors.
Through this journey he has shaped and represented the second divide,
the stupid from the rational, common sense thinkers.
take the drugs, get stuck in the alcohol, can destroy you,
lead you to a life of carelessness and more.
and ultimately...lead you astray from every human beings goal.
Now i know a greater majority of the human race would not necessarily be stupid, but not smart either.
And do not use the common sense form of thinking that i feel should be a standard.
When they must specify on a cup of coffee that it is hot before people know...
that is not common sense or smart.
and when you get fat and dont know why cuz you have only been eating mcdonalds for like.... just a month straight.
stupid.
I have finally come to the conclusion recently that despite the lack of faith i have in the human race, i have the utmost faith in myself and the choices i have made recently.
and the fact that i continuously lose faith in this race when i hear the ignorant remarks, self righteous attitudes, so called know it all intelligence, when really none of that is real,
i hear things such as noone likes you and noone will care when you die, your parents never loved you, youre adopted, things of that nature, it makes me sick to my stomach.
there are kids and people in this world like that. And i genuinely feel for them.
I am a fortunate one, i have completed my quest early, i know what i need and i have it, now its a matter of getting what i want, which requires work.
Though the world will not come to an end in three years, our race could and possibly faster.
The goal we ALL set out to reach is the undying happiness.
the something we are set to find is what gives us that happiness.
looking around with careful eyes i see the highs and mostly the lows of the human race.
The false superiority and self righteousness being the biggest ones.
I think everyone needs to realize one thing for our future to truly be bright and wonderful as the movies try to portray....
Until we learn to cooperate, all of our efforts will result in failure.
destroying everyone who doesnt agree with you is the kind of thinking that will be the death of us all.
that is what the journey is all about.
then we are all broken down into fractions from there.
These fractions dont necessarily relate to this search at all...
And to save time with math...i will not provide my estimates to these percentages.
First divide, the ones that want a successful life, the ones that dont, and the ones that get lost in between.
for humans, and their need to be a part of a group... can easily get lost.
kids, oh how their minds can be shaped much like the playdoh they occupy their time with.
Here is where it starts, with the parents.
I know the trend of those that feel like destroying their lives will never go away for this fact,
stupid parents pass it on to their kids, who dont know any better.
Example,racist man and racist woman have a baby boy.
This boy with the aspirations to grow up and lead a normal life will be hit with every racial slur in the book and then some before he can talk most likely.
because a majority of the world has accepted that skin color does not make you any different in reality..
they will see other races allllll over, and making comments to each other that their son will inevitably hear and soak up.
stupidity is in fact infectious.
Now i realize the small chance that this kid can see the error his parents present
through childhood friends maybe.
He could be headed down any of the divided roads at this point but now he is stuck in the lost category.
The moment that could decide comes when he possibly sees a child of another race in his school, or class, or maybe at the store or on the street.
The words he uses to describe that person in his mind or aloud are very influential to his path
Choosing the racial path in todays age could more likely than not lead to the bad path.
Now his friends, once he gets older.
the drugs, the alcohols, the trouble, definitive factors.
Through this journey he has shaped and represented the second divide,
the stupid from the rational, common sense thinkers.
take the drugs, get stuck in the alcohol, can destroy you,
lead you to a life of carelessness and more.
and ultimately...lead you astray from every human beings goal.
Now i know a greater majority of the human race would not necessarily be stupid, but not smart either.
And do not use the common sense form of thinking that i feel should be a standard.
When they must specify on a cup of coffee that it is hot before people know...
that is not common sense or smart.
and when you get fat and dont know why cuz you have only been eating mcdonalds for like.... just a month straight.
stupid.
I have finally come to the conclusion recently that despite the lack of faith i have in the human race, i have the utmost faith in myself and the choices i have made recently.
and the fact that i continuously lose faith in this race when i hear the ignorant remarks, self righteous attitudes, so called know it all intelligence, when really none of that is real,
i hear things such as noone likes you and noone will care when you die, your parents never loved you, youre adopted, things of that nature, it makes me sick to my stomach.
there are kids and people in this world like that. And i genuinely feel for them.
I am a fortunate one, i have completed my quest early, i know what i need and i have it, now its a matter of getting what i want, which requires work.
Though the world will not come to an end in three years, our race could and possibly faster.
The goal we ALL set out to reach is the undying happiness.
the something we are set to find is what gives us that happiness.
looking around with careful eyes i see the highs and mostly the lows of the human race.
The false superiority and self righteousness being the biggest ones.
I think everyone needs to realize one thing for our future to truly be bright and wonderful as the movies try to portray....
Until we learn to cooperate, all of our efforts will result in failure.
destroying everyone who doesnt agree with you is the kind of thinking that will be the death of us all.
Blood and guts
now i know you got a complex, you see
superiority seems to be all will be
and just cuz i practice santeria
that makes you better than me
but when you leap to be caught
and fall to the ground
ill be standing right up saving my jumps
and i know how i spend my time puts me at the bottom
but the food chain is set for revolt, fucking the top
because i dont fake belief such as you
im the expendable kind of guy
because your crazy when you look up
all i see is gallows and the sky.
my hobbies not approved by you
my life not good enough for you
because i decided to keep it and stay true
we're headin in opposite directions and thats fine for you
you say you'll get there first, there i hope you do
i know you will\
superiority seems to be all will be
and just cuz i practice santeria
that makes you better than me
but when you leap to be caught
and fall to the ground
ill be standing right up saving my jumps
and i know how i spend my time puts me at the bottom
but the food chain is set for revolt, fucking the top
because i dont fake belief such as you
im the expendable kind of guy
because your crazy when you look up
all i see is gallows and the sky.
my hobbies not approved by you
my life not good enough for you
because i decided to keep it and stay true
we're headin in opposite directions and thats fine for you
you say you'll get there first, there i hope you do
i know you will\
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