Hide and seek.

When did you walk away?
didnt you always swear that you would stay?
no bullets strong enough to bust your brain
but the brain ran away, and everything crushed remains.
Why did you leave us?
when everyone payed to keep you around.
You ran away after that quick fight
you ran and destroyed, to make it all right
Killing time, killing minds
killing eyes, bured with pain
Images will always remain.
Toxic dreams and snacks all day
nothing you wanted but everything youd taken
if you had not let it slip you still be here today
and sometimes we miss you while youre away.

I walk on the wrong side to see your face,
run me down now so ill remember the ways;
If i ask you will you break my pain?
lobotomize my emotion and sever my vertebrae
and give me a hit of morphine straight to the brain
Nothing as real as it seems to be,
paradise is inside flesh and bone;
string me out ten feet long
find my paradise on the yellow lines
this is what i wanted this time,
you were lost but now i've found,
but now it's killed me this time around.

Every night when I end up home I wonder when I awake; why I cannot find the road; why I cannot be saved

Places to see before you die....

To break the monotony of this blog (and since I have nothing written) I figured I'd post a personal goal for myself that might get some of you researching and, well, knowledge is always good.


This is more or less in order, Places I want to see before I die..

1. Chernobyl/Prypiat
2. Winchester Mansion
3. Kolmanskop
4. Oradour-Sur-Glane
5. Craco
6. Gunkanjima
7. Kowloon Walled City
8. Famagusta
9. Kadykchan
10. Agdam
11. San Zhi

Just a short list, wonder if I will ever complete it...
You may notice a pattern in these places, I'll let you find that for yourself, but I find them all very fascinating.

Don't worry, back to writing very soon.
Stay tuned.

Outlander! Outlander! We have your woman!

So this is what it's like;
to love, to love.
and this is how it is;
with love, in love.
What is it you do;
it's fun, and it's fun.

No matter what you do
it's so happy, and so sad.
and running in the right direction takes you only the wrong way.
every time you see brings the tunnel some light
and all you ever needed is right in your sight.
We all cut grass and watch it grow back
and we all paint the walls and watch it drip, dry, and fade.
Running never got you nowhere when you know where to run
and hiking is just great when the destination is fun.

I raise my nose to the sky and see everything so small
a spark and a trail and im away from it all
right where i wanna be, this is who im gunna be
now show me where you want me. you push me, you pull me.
exploit the ticket and food for thought,
more take, less give, what backstabbing has taught.
pleasing all the problems will leave you dead
in perfect, with this packet two lives could be fed.

This is what I want.

One day it will all come to an end. and all that we love we will lose all the same.
we better start today before it's too late, we better start now, before we are out of time, let us start now, because what do you know about the afterlife?
A life without a quest is your life without an F,
and though you live it every day its sad it will end that way.
I want to learn why humans can be the same.
ignorant, apathetic, self-centered, angry.
stupid, far, less caring, more gullible than free..
I want to know why astronomy based science fiction forms a book to lead people to herd like sheep to the first person to preach.
They top it off with wars and hate when they dont care to understand
the things they fight for, what they fight against, all one in the same.
I want to know how they can jump ship so easily,
a ship they once built with their lies about belief.
They care about themselves, but pretend it is for others
I need to know how they can believe ludicrous stories, made up, theyre told
then shove them down others throats till it gets old
Your book is just that, not gold in your hands
yet you believe it thought the answers, are right above your head.

Feed Test.

Testing the RSS feed, new content up tomorrow for sure. Provided i get my work done.

Been Really Slow Lately...

Everything's been kind of slow lately but have had a bit of work to do so I'll be getting that done but I got some things cookin' up in my noggin so check back in a bit and I'll have some fresh stuff up and, well, hopefully it's decent.

What makes us civilized.

War set to rage over blind beliefs that we claim,
no one really knows the beginning, though they may say
people search as people die to protect the holy name
but the saint you follow was the product of a bed of unholy game.
Now you flock to buildings to hear it all read and read again
what makes it any more right when it's preached to you by some man?
he's shoving it all down your throat until you believe what he says
but too much belief can lead you blind, and throw your life away.

Different beliefs is human kind, and different beliefs will stay
but what makes us civilized is being accepting of others ways
being civilized can bring a life of 100 years or more
but closed mindedness is the death of us, too stupid to see whats in store.

Get me off this place.

Disease ridden cluster fuck waiting to explode
we all stand around it, wanting to know
what is the plan that we all must partake
where is the air we all must intake?
get me off this place, i dont wanna save
promises, and guarantees that have been made
there is nothing divine about your way
if it was already said, why is it called a race?
failure rate at 100, we all do not comply
because in attempting to comply the meaning, we always tend to die.
if it was set in motion for us in the beginning
why would we waste time, with things that have no meaning?
if there is a helping hand from up high,
why is it some, never even see the sky?

Times they are a-changin'

i can see it now
there is no youth now
its fading away...

it hits like a horror show
like Lucy the cloud, without her chorus
a sacrifice of jewelry to save us..
bring me the flood i have no gates to hold
i will bare the weight that you may not know
everyone i see is too old to fit their skin
and noone knows they good they had, tucked away in their lives.

noone is young now, no baby's are born now.
age is old now, youth is dead now.

the wind is blowing to change the world
noone knows how hard it will blow
it blows too hard to control now
the times they change more rapid now.
The wind brings change, too much to note
i for one, will not blow.

It's all sunshine

so much love you dont know what to do
dont know what it is, and definitely not who.
There's a mini out there who cant be given so
and they're lost and cofused trying to find their soul.

so much love that i wish you would die
the horrors you wont have to face saved for the wicked
and noone understands what it means to be sane.
The only thing i know is we are not the same.
I can wish you dead any time that i like.
i can wish you here with me tonight
but none of that matters when not all is fair and right
nothing else matters , just make it through the night.

it's only one dream we see but it's all the same
we all wake up and continue our days.
Never sleeping, never dreaming, paradise is lost.
Nothing is the same when your eyes are in the front.

sigh-a-nigh-d, greed-and-strife-d

Some people want money,
to help them in their lives
me, im a little different, i can't decide
not to take it or leave it because i have it all
but do i want these green ones, or the coins by the wall?
here is some green, useful for most things,
but then theres the coinage, can be used just the same.
because it's in big coins it makes no difference to them
but why oh why does it make one to me?
here i am so rich and grand, but oh so greedy.
all in all, i have more money than life,
and the bottom line is great this time,
green is green and what i got, the coins are there not to be forgot'
both as important to a rich man and his things
but it should spend it all, i dont deserve to be a king.

Title: Stolen!

The painful noise in my ear
and the massage on my bones
and as i close my eyes i see a land
that wont go away.
all that i see was once raining down on me.
when all was down and low as can be
the ticket i got to set me free
in the form of a pill with choice of red or blue
but which to choose, the problem plagued me.
tired of the choice i set it to rest
i gave up my chances and hoped for the best.
when the time come i was force fed a pill
blue was my color, it seems it always will
now that the choice was made for me, i cant help but wonder
what did the red have in store for me?
here in blue we got all the candy in the mall
but the red's got the drinks like a waterfall
as well as the sandwiches, pepper jack and all.
the blue place, where it's good to be
but should i wander back to the red just to see?

so many gaps with no bridges left we need to rebuild
but the place is just as it was, even some foliage has filled
but maybe blue's grass holds the secrets to the film.
everyones got a color too em, but what could it be?
i look back and see i never really had a choice in front of me
at that moment, though ive made the ones that need be.
its a tough slope to slide down, and then you hit that fork
and then you dont know where to go so you stay on course.
looking good is lookin good but the grass is only good green
and over that fence is some grass i cannot see
sliding on the slope slippery from the dew
is what everyone is saying, really true?