Change! [Circa May '08]

it has been kept away for quite some time,
hidden in my mind and released at this time
i could think of a million ways to say
the very way i feel about you today
i hate you, thats just they way it goes
i hate what you've become
and what you remain to be
i hate your fuck ups
you know how much they hurt me
i miss the way that you used to be
i know your a failure you can't be right
it seems now days there's no happiness in sight
you are crazy for letting yourself get this way
you stress over stupid shit, the pain won't stay
you know i know your dead inside
you can't find happiness to make the pain subside
im sure there is no joy in your world
only false smiles you manage to push out
they don't last, they are overcome by disease
i wish i could help and end your misery
pull the trigger, say goodbye, save you peacefully
but i need you to stay
im nothing without you
im lost and forgotten
because your the only one who truely knows me
i want you to stay, you have so much to teach me
but i want you to change to they way you used to be
but sometimes people just never change
thats the way they are ment to be
but i know thats not you
i know you too well
you just need that ticket to happiness
the ticket i try to provide
but this gift, your too gone to take
but now i hear you took a shot
a hit real big like kryptonite
and its said to have changed you that night
we will see if it sticks
and we know who to thank for the help
a man named chris dealing out medicine to help you change
i hope it sticks
because you know i love you
the person you were
the person i hope your running back to be
return to that form, its the best idea
because if you don't try to change
it could cost you your life./