I miss you, and all our games
because i let youm give me a name
because i helped you, though you never gave
I never asked, you never had, what i could give
the impression of what truely is,
importance, in its purest form
and you tell me, you forgot this wasnt the norm
but you were so very colse to me
i was the family, she would never be
from the same place, we both ran here
we thought we'd end it, and we never feared
you had changed me more than anyone before
but nothing is left, you are great Kingsbury lore,
from the streets you came, to the home i gave
to when you finally went off, gone for your own
now the fun was ours, it was always around
we made the funnest times, in the lamest town
we went through the girls,we went through the schools
we went through policemen, we went through it all
your opinions were wise, especially on love and the fall
we were there when you found your one
but id find mine, you'd be gone
[c]
never one to hate, you were always so grateful
and as we all know the parties bring the assholes
i was supposed to be backup, i was supposed to be smart
but it slipped through my fingers, like the water on a knife
the blurriest of visions, almost black and white
but only on ething was clear, and colored so bright
shortly after the shock, i held in my hands
the one thing to most, that is the most important to man
but the most important to this one, was clueless in bed.
not knowing of life taking, not knowing of life giving
many hours later drunken fun was now dead
now hit with a hurricane, i thought i'd never swim again.
[c]
I want you to rest assured, all the money it took, we made
to the place you wanted to go, a wish that we gave
and the question you never asked, got asked along the way
the promises made, i will keep, in any way
i had no idea, the impace on that man
ill be sure to tell you later, every word you said
the next time i see you again, in Jeffery Jordan Ashlan,
even in your other poems, the ones that might be about nothing, i see something i see in my own:
ReplyDeletesadness--missing home. but, its more than that, it's missing your home, but not wanting to give up what you've made here, you know.
if its possible, it's like.. i don't know. it's the same with me, my home is always in perris california, my best friend will always be there, nothing will ever replace where i grew up, but i still don't think i could ever let my friends, my school, my relationships here go.
no matter how much i miss it.